I want to live in a garden somewhere, not in a cave.
After reading, and loving, the latest book by Dr. Jenny Tanabe My Reflections on Life and Other Important Matters I learned that Eve (of Eve and Adam our first ancestors) was living in a cave and that Cain was in pain.
In this story telling book of Genesis in the Bible, we all know the spooky happening of Eve’s mistake with the archangel Satan and the continuous dramas of how God placed angels at the gate of The garden of Eden that no one could enter! Certainly not Eve as because of her sin, and sins have consequences, or Adam who followed her in disobedience to God their creator and parent. So in a sense, what seems to be like a bedside story, is more like a horror movie of nowadays.
But the stories of Dr. Jenny have hope of deliverance, of a better tomorrow, of a successful ending. We all expect movies to have a happy ending, to be satisfied in the matters of love and heart.
You need to read those two special favorites of mine, “The Cave” and “Cain was in Pain.” You will learn also why Cain killed his beloved brother, and all the pain Cain went through. As mothers we want to embrace our children. we want peace and love. we want all wars to be terminated.
The solution? Let’s include God. our Heavenly Parent, as we go over the hill of the end of the providence of restoration into a world of hope and joy which resembles very much the Garden of Eden found again, or the opening of the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Who Am I?
The question we all have since the beginning of time: WHO AM I?
On my way back to San Diego California, from Albany New York, on July 4th the plane was half full. I could relax and meditate, looking at the friendly skies from above.
Who am I?
First and foremost, I am a beloved daughter of God.
A woman chosen for such a time as this.
Like Joan of Arc, our French heroine, I cannot be defeated.
I do the impossible task of building the Kingdom of Heaven, right here on the earth.
I am my husband Dietrich’s eternal wife.
I give love wherever I go, because it was given to me abundantly.
I am a mother who gave life to two children.
I am Christopher’s beloved mother.
I am Diesa’s beloved mother
I am a tribe mother.
I gave life to 43 blessed couples.
I gave life to 430 couples as tribe members.
I gave new life to 430 ancestor couples.
I am so blessed to be a Mother.
Our tribe’s motto is:
“Opening the gates of Heaven with Holy Mother Han, the mother of peace, by supporting each other.”
This is who I think I am.
Think Yourself Well!
In 1987 Rev. Moon had a meeting with health professionals before opening a hospital. He saw the real impact in curing disease is from the spiritual factor. In other words, the mind. If a man becomes sick and choose to lives in nature, like in the mountains, and has a strong will and spirituality, he can live well there and overcome his sickness.
If you go to church then your mind is so happy that you forget you have an illness, that can be one of the best cures. Spirituality makes your spirit strong which gives vitality elements to your body!
In her book Mind Over Medicine, Lissa Rankin said:
- Change your thoughts
- Change your behaviors
- Change your biochemistry.
Our mind can make us sick, and it can make us well. Our feelings and beliefs impact our every cell. See yourself happy, whole, and at ease.
Our thoughts hold more medicine than many of the astonishing medical breakthroughs of our time.
Hope heals.
Happiness is preventative medicine.
Whether or not we feel and express love affects our well-being.
Infants’ material needs can be met, like being well fed, having appropriate clothing, etc., but if they are left alone in their crib, ignored, and not loved, they can die very quickly. That’s why the school of love is the family.
My grandma Marie was dropped off at the orphanage in Lyon, I believe by her birth mother. Because I also believe her birth father could not, or decided not to, take responsibility for love.
My grandma found adoptive parents who loved her as their own daughter amidst many other children of their own. They restored hope and happiness in her, gave her a dowry when she married, and she became my beloved grandma.
The family is the school of love. The clan and tribe continue a loving community, and at church you find larger social networks.
Healthy relationships are medicine for the mind. Think yourself well!
Good Luck, Guidance, and Divine Intervention
When you think deeply about your son and he happens to call, and both hearts are melting…
it’s January has been snowing the whole night and you got to head to New York City for a very special event you cannot cancel, and you realize your neighbor has been blowing the snow in your driveway and your car is ready to go!
You are fundraising for a good cause but you become so tired that you do not want to do it anymore. Then you see a bird and a voice in your head says, “Come this way.” You follow the bird. It stops at one house. The lady buys your plant. The bird is still there and flies to the next house. You are very intrigued and follow it to the next house where again your plants are sold.
Your car breaks down in the middle of nowhere. You pray because you do not know what to do. A car stops by you and two young men came out. They are mechanics and fix your car in no time and you are ready to go.
You are crying profusely in your kitchen where two birds live (in a cage) because your boyfriend just broke up with you. The moment you start crying, the birds sing joyfully. You stop crying for a minute and the birds stop singing. You start crying again and the birds sing joyfully till your heart is comforted.
Your heart feels sad today. Look up to heaven for an answer and look down where there is a shining penny waiting for you to pick it up. it says “In God We Trust”!
You have been alone. You are 30 years old. You went to a matching event at Belvedere where the four-leaf clovers grow. You are matched this very night with someone you never saw before. It was your true love forever and ever!
These are experiences of good luck, guidance, and divine intervention.
Love Stimulates Love
“What’s wrong with the world…People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas.”
This is from the song “Where Is the Love?” by the Black Eyed Peas.
On each trip to the library, I pick up a few books on marriage and relationships. This has always been for me the most interesting topic as life is all about relationships. if we can get the fundamental relationship of husband and wife going strong and the family is well, then all will be well.
In his book Family First, Dr. Phil shares that he has an obligation to protect and care for his family. He and his wife made a pledge to each other and their family, reporting to God in prayer.
The other book I picked was the The Good Marriage: How and Why Love Lasts, by Judith S. Wallerstein and Sandra Blakeslee. They said that one in two marriages ends in divorce, and one in three children can expect to experience their parents’ divorce. The bride and groom themselves may question why they should marry, since it’s likely to break up.
To continue from The Good Marriage, the authors convey that even happily married men and women can get depressed, lose jobs; they cry, yell, get frustrated; they come from sad, abusive neglectful backgrounds as well as from stable families. All marriages are haunted from things of the past.
Marriage counselors like to tell their clients that there are at least six people in every marital bed: the couple and both sets of parents.
My favorite book this month is by Gary Chapman, author of The 5 Love Languages. The title of his book is Love as a Way of Life.
Chapman said that his marriage radically changed after he asked his wife three questions every day:
1. What can I do to help you today?
2. How can I make your life easier?
3. How can I be a better husband to you?
He said when he asked these questions, his wife gave the answers with no reluctance. Her answers taught him how to express love to her in meaningful ways. Within a month, he saw a change in his wife’s attitude towards him. Within three months, she was willing to ask him those three questions in return. Their relationship took a positive turn. “Love always stimulates love.”
Chapman also mentioned that they gave each other complete access to computers, cell phones, and financial records. Being an open book to each other like this means not hiding anything, not cheating. It is better to share everything for protection, and be together in everything. He emphasized that no other man could treat his wife as well as he does. He believes he needed divine help in order to make love as a way of life.
I was very thrilled this month when my editor announced she transcribed sixteen tapes of Dietrich’s classes on Marriage and Family. Without God things become quickly impossible and hopeless! Dietrich was a theologian first and foremost. And second, he has the same dream as God, our Heavenly Parent, to make an eternal relationship with one’s spouse and God together. I have to say as his wife he did an excellent job!
Moms Also Have Wishes
I wish to reconcile with my only brother!
I wish my children would understand what is important for their Dad and their Mom.
I wish every day I could make all the wrongs into rights, the hatred into love, and all the resentments be forgiven.
I wish I could go one more time to see the village of my grandma’s home in the Alps where her childhood home is still there among the ruins, the church in her village where one year I could share holy wine, the place where she tended the sheep and the cows. She had to work hard to pay for her room and board. She came from an orphanage in Lyon, and then she was adopted and received much love.
I wish I could visit my son and be there for him in Brazil and my son could be there for me.
I wish my daughter had time to take me across America, the land that I love.
I wish to put my life in order and prepare for my next mission, serving and blessing people in my next life above!
I wish for the time where people are an extended family caring for each other in true love, where no one is lonely, and each one invited to the table to be loved and served.
It is the time where we put every wrong into right, the time where Holy Mother Han has been opening wide the gates of Heaven.
Stay Connected to Your Spouse at All Times: If one of us is hurt, we are all hurt
I read this quote on the internet:
“When a woman loves a man, and that man gives other women attention behind her back, she is not ‘jealous’ or ‘insecure’ but she is feeling hurt and betrayed by the man that says he loves her.”
For me this means protecting our boundaries, protecting the respect we have for each other, protecting our relationship from outsiders, solving our problems within our marriage, making our partner feel valued and secure by working to create unity with each other. It means giving attention to another woman (flirting) is cheating. An emotional affair is part of infidelity.
One of our life episodes was when Dietrich was finishing his doctorate in theology and we had two young children. Another lady was also finishing her doctoral studies.
One day my husband announced that he was going to study with her in her apartment for a few hours. I thought, “Oh, he needs to study and she too, and they are helping each other. And she is engaged to be married!”
But I did not like the fact that there would be alone in her apartment. After a few hours “she” drove him back to the park where I was waiting with the kids. I did not like the way she was looking at my husband. It did not feel quite right. It felt like an intrusion. That another “she” was having all the attention.
I did not feel “jealous” or insecure.” I felt deeply hurt.
It is said in the Bible that Jesus had to overcome three temptations. At that time my spouse was not realizing that it was a trap from Satan, and he was being tempted. “She” did not have pure motives.
We solved this situation pretty quickly, because we knew stuff! Alarm bells rang in our ears.
It is uncomfortable if a married man says to a woman that she is pretty. Never develop an emotional connection or digital connection with another woman. Emotion leads to physical action.
There are many ways to create inseparable bonds. You can have meaningful rituals that no interference can destroy.
My husband and I always prayed together. It means we built a wall of protection! We had daily meaningful conversations (we built intimacy). We solved our conflicts by researching problem solving.
We had lots of credit in our emotional bank account and if I ever said something unkind to him, he would look for ways to repay me with kind words and unconditional Godly love.
We had a spiritual life. We had a purpose. We had a highly ideal mission. Our mission was to be one, together is better. To be the other half of each other.
We resemble our Creator, our Heavenly Parent. When we reach that point, we become inseparable, from each other and from God. And there will be no more fallen humankind! Oh what a wonderful world!
Matchmaker Matchmaker Make Me a Match
February is a lucky month.
My husband told me recently (from the spirit world) that it was then in February 1977 that he made the best decision of his life.
On a snowy day, where the four-leaf clovers grow piercing through the snow, he said “Yes.”
For me was the best day of my life.
It was a providential day, for when you said it you meant it.
A day when all promises are kept.
When the D-Day has finally come.
It was the best day of my life.
When in the Bible it said “they washed their robes and made them white.”
When on this day you said “Yes.”
When the seven years of tribulations, when all hell was let loose, when the evil one does not want any of this. But you came out victorious in the fierce battle.
The angels sang, and the New Hope Singers International, and the Go World Brass Band played on this particular day.
It was February 21, 1977, the best day of my life.
If Love Can Sing
If love can sing then love must be eternal!
At the beginning of our relationship, my husband Dietrich and I sent letters to each other via post as there were no cell phones or texting then.
Receiving those most precious letters signed “your eternal husband” was “music to my ears.” I also signed my letters “your eternal wife.”
Later when arriving home after a long day at work, taking me in his arms he would exclaim, “My eternal wife” as I was waiting by the door!
Love is eternal because God’s attributes are unchanging, eternal, and absolute. Then true love is also absolute, eternal, and unchanging. That’s why before Dietrich passed, he said to me “Forever together.”
The same goes for my family. Families are forever.

Randolph Remmel recently published this book
which tells the beginning of the story of the New Hope Singers International.
To learn more,
visit this website.
Calling Our Beloved’s Name
There is meaning in a person’s name.
I remember when Dietrich called my name his voice had a special vibe, touching the deepest part of my heart. My name was becoming so beautiful!
After Dietrich had ascended, one day, when I called his name he replied:
“When you call my name, I can be there, no problem. I like when you call my name because this is a way that I feel loved.”
My good friend Dr. Laurent Ladouce wrote that when he heard his wife pronounce his name for the first time he felt reborn. That is so special!
You can read Laurent’s article about love here. He refers to my book, “Letters Beyond the Veil”! His comment about his wife calling his name is in his response to a reader of the blog.